Friday, April 30, 2010

a day of lasts.

Today was a day of lasts.
My time in Shupe is winding down and people are moving out. Being an RA means that I am a part of that in that I send some of these very special freshman on their way for their first summer between college. It was a sad time for most of the girls. It's hard. Going from living with people every day for 9 months to being gone for 3 months and you may never live in the same place with these people, even if you all do come back in the fall.... For many that I checked out today it really hadn't hit them that I was graduating... That this might be our last time together. It was sad. I find that my heart is heavy. It was hard. Especially with those that I got very close with this year.
[side note: radiohead is playing on Pandora right now... they may or may not be a new favorite of mine] [and Matt Nathanson is growing on me]
I had a dad today ask me how I liked being an RA. I'm not gonna lie, duty sometimes was unbearable, but it was also maybe one of the best experiences of my college life. I have pretty much absolutely loved being an RA this semester. I have changed a lot as a person and have learned a lot about myself. And I've developed relationships with some great people that might not have happened otherwise.
Today was my last day working at St Mark as an assistant. It was fun to work there, but I will not miss doing the very large mailings that occur each time that a new calendar is out. And I will not miss getting ready for the very large parent meetings that come twice a year. Thank the Lord.
I also went to an interview at the suicide prevention center up in Granger. I interviewed for an internship to be an assistant to the director. It seems like it is going to be seriously an amazing experience. This is one of those internships that when I heard about it my pulse quickened and I just knew that it was something that I wanted to do. I will learn on Monday if the position is mine.

Tonight is the graduate dinner. It should be a fun time.
Well... I'm out.

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

I took what felt like the longest nap of my life today.



And it was glorious.

Monday, April 26, 2010

These are many of my lasts... Today I took my last final. I turned in my last final paper. Friday I had my last class of undergradness. Tonight is my last night on duty (thankfully). And last night was my last all-nighter pulled to finish a paper that I had written half of earlier and forgotten to finish. Last night was rachel's last night staying with me in shupe. Last night was my last night to spend the evening in Notre Dame's library studying and looking for books. And hopefully the last time that Rachel and I literally collide while looking for books.

The upcoming rest of the week my be my lasts for a lot of things and might be my lasts in seeing a lot of people.

I realize that I haven't blogged in a while, and there is some informing that needs to happen.
Let me tell you about my SoulForce experience.
SoulForce is a LGBTQ group that travels around to various christian campuses that they believe to have policies that are oppressive or discriminatory towards LGBTQ people, they call it an "equality ride". Since Bethel is a college that is founded by the Missionary Church and follows the Missionary Church's doctrine, it disagrees with the lifestyles of LGBTQ persons. I was a host for one of the "riders" which means that I spent the day at Bethel with Mia. I went to chapel with her and the group and then we went to lunch together and then we had an open forum time/group discussion. One of the points in the discussion was over a section in our student handbook that outlines Bethel's general rules of conduct in which it states "All students must abstain from... (listing several things)... sexual promiscuity (including adultery, homosexuality and fornication)..." Our administration has already agreed to change the wording of that statement to read "homosexual behavior" instead of "homosexuality". Bethel is a college that commits to strive for purity, which is their reasoning for that clause being in the handbook and on other various documents at the college. There were a lot of other things about the day that I could put in here, but I will spare you. If you would like to know, then you may contact me. All in all, I think I went away from the day positively. It affirmed my beliefs, and I can honestly say that I am proud to attend this school. Our goal is to love and live a life that is worthy of following Christ.
It also made me aware of the disconnect between the two groups. What I mean by that, is that the main way in which I identify myself is many things: Christian, daughter, sister, aunt, student, etc. For the "riders" many of them had their identities very focused on their sexual orientation and on their gender identity (or lack thereof).

Anyway. This post is already way too long. And I'm exhausted from the all-nighter and distracted by Courtney sitting right next to me watching clips from The Middle.
Catch ya later.

Monday, April 12, 2010

Two More Weeks

Two more weeks! Two more weeks! Two more weeks!!!
I can't believe it. I officially have only two more weeks of classes and three more weeks until graduation. Time has really flown by. And I feel like I have a ton of things to do before it is over.

At this point in time one week ago I was with Laura and Naomi for Laura's last night in the states. The three of us traveled to Chicago on Tuesday morning to Midway to drop Laura off. I missed her as soon as she left the car. Naomi and I spent a few hours in Chicago afterwards. We did a little shopping and ate at Giordano's and spent more money on parking than we did actually on anything else, but that's Chicago for you. It feels like that was just yesterday.

This Friday I get the chance to participate in a unique experience here at Bethel. A group known as Soul Force contacted Bethel my freshman year to see if they could come to Bethel, and so Bethel set up a time that they could come. The day has finally come. I was asked by my RD to be a host for one of the members. So Friday morning I will wake up early and head to Wiekamp to meet the person that I will be spending the day with. I am really looking forward to the experience.

Here are some things that I am looking forward to doing in the next three weeks before I am officially a Bethel Graduate:
*Chipotle date with Grace
*rollerblading with friends at the River Walk
*the Camp Out/double movie feature of Dennis the Menace and The Sandlot (including the making of smores... because you can't have one without the other in either situation)
*being mischievous on campus
*selling my books
*Shupe Slip n Slide
*having no finals during finals week
*spending tons of time outdoors
*bridal showers (I have about 1 a week until school is out)
*Panera date with Mozy
*various proclaimations with Leah and Amy
*making a music video
*dance parties to relieve stress
*Dunes day with Courtney (and maybe Tiff if she isn't busy)
*photo shoot (not that kind you perv...)

Well, it is time to get back to my study guide for Bio Psych.