I stumbled upon this quote today. It makes me think many things...
"When has God ever taken anything from a person without restoring it many times over? Yet what are we to think if He does not immediately restore what has been taken? Is today His only day to work? "
--Streams in the Desert
It reminds me that I serve an ever present God that, thankfully, is always working in me. It reminds me that even through the difficult times, He is working. He is moving. But that there is a time and a place for everything.
How often am I looking for the instant fix? To just be "back to normal"? "Putting back together always takes longer than falling apart" (Josh Riebock, Heroes and Monsters). This journey, this process, in getting back to feeling restored is a process that I often just wish would get here.
This has been a very trying year and a half, it feels like. I still find myself thinking the "what ifs" of life. If I had moved last August like I had originally planned in February... If my aunt hadn't passed away... If that fight hadn't happened with my cousin... Etc.
Plan all you want. Play out the scenarios. But one thing remains -- you cannot undo the things of the past. You cannot change the outcome of something that has already come to be. You cannot dwell on those things because in the end, sometimes there are more questions then answers. And sometimes in searching those answers - there is very little peace to be found.
I am learning the meaning of being content with where I am. I am constantly being reminded of my need for patience. And I am living with the knowledge that God has placed me here for such a time as this. And that when the time for life to change comes, it will be the right move - the right direction - the right place -- because ultimately it will be His timing - His direction - His place - His plan.